Nature comforts me. |
It is hard to believe that it has been well over a month since our dear baby sister went to be with Jesus, but time marches on. You can read a little about Amy’s amazing life here.
I’ve spent a lot of time the past 30+ days thinking and grieving and processing what happened and I know I am not finished yet. All of us were given great advice by our cousin, Ted, who preached her service, when he told us to grieve as long as we needed, but let grief lead to gratitude for the time we spent with her and acknowledgment of God’s grace through it all.
Grief. Gratitude. Grace.
I’ve been experiencing large doses of all three. Brad has taken wonderful care of me and I’ve been nice to myself, too. I’ve eaten Comfort Food and read Comfort Books.
Or too preachy.
Or taking an outraged stand against something that just isn’t that important.
Here are just a few of my favorite word hugs from book one as Anne begins to learn about her Heavenly Father:
Hug One-Her first prayer after being instructed by Marilla to thank God for her blessings and ask Him humbly for the things she wanted:
Gracious heavenly Father, I thank Thee for the White Way of Delight and the Lake of Shining Waters and Bonny and the Snow Queen. I’m really extremely grateful for them. And that’s all the blessings I can think of just now to thank Thee for. As for the things I want, they’re so numerous that it would take a great deal of time to name them all, so I will only mention the two most important. Please let me stay at Green Gables; and please let me be good-looking when I grow up. I remain, “Yours respectfully, “Anne Shirley.
Such a sweet trusting prayer from a little girl, don’t you think?
Hug Two– Anne’s declaration about Diana’s mother after the unfortunate incident when Anne accidentally got Diana intoxicated and tried desperately to apologize for it.
There is nothing more to do except to pray and I haven’t much hope that that’ll do much good because, Marilla, I do not believe that God Himself can do very much with such an obstinate person as Mrs. Barry.
I’m a little embarrassed to admit that I have had similar feelings about people. True confession.
Hug Three-God really spoke to Anne through nature, just as He does to many of us.
Oh, Matthew,isn’t it a wonderful morning? The world looks like something God had just imagined for His own pleasure, doesn’t it? Those trees look as if I could blow them away with a breath-pouf! I’m so glad I live in a world where there are white frosts, aren’t you?
Hug Four- Remember the night Anne saved Diana’s little sister from croup? Diana’s mom changed her opinion about Anne after that and decided the two girls could be friends again.
I assure you Marilla that I feel like praying tonight and I’m going to think out a special brand-new prayer in honor of the occasion.
Hug Five-Anne’s take on the human condition….
There’s such a lot of different Annes in me. I sometimes think that is why I’m such a troublesome person. If I was just the one Anne, it would be ever so much more comfortable, but then it wouldn’t be half so interesting.
Hug Six-and on their new young minister….
I liked him because his sermon was interesting and he prayed as if he meant it and not just as if he did it because he was in the habit of it……Mrs. Lynde says that sound doctrine in the man and good housekeeping in the woman make an ideal combination for a minister’s family.
I laughed out loud at that one!
I would love to have a conversation with the author, Lucy Maude Montgomery, who must have been quite an astute person-studier. She understood people from the inside out. I recognized parts of myself in many of the characters and my friends, family and neighbors in others.
What makes people tick never really changes. We are basically the same in our hearts whether we lived years ago or in the present technological age.
And that is why I enjoy reading.
I learn so much from observing the actions and words of others.
It makes me wonder the story my life is telling. Is it the story of a judgmental, self centered person or of a kind, warm-hearted person who brings out the best in others?
With God’s help, I pray there is a little bit of Anne Shirley in even me!
June says
I'm sure of it Susan! and I hope the same for myself. I want to send you a big hugs for this beautiful post!
and much love…
NanaDiana says
Susan, I was away from blogging for quite a while battling this crazy pneumonia and after effects so I did not know about your sister, Amy. Belatedly, let me say I am so so very sorry It is awful to lose a younger sibling. I lost my only brother, Charlie, 2 years ago to a fast moving cancer 5 days from diagnosis to death It is world altering. Things that used to matter really don't seem important at all- fixing up a piece of furniture, painting a room, redoing something? It all lost all of its appeal. It changes not only who you are but what you care about.
I understand completely what you are feeling. It takes a while to move forward-to try to come to grips with the fact that they are gone-completely gone from this world….but eventually you make some sort of peace with it and begin to enjoy things again-although on a different level
God bless you, Susan. I am glad you found something to read that you enjoy. I did not read for almost 18 months afterwards and I have always been an avid reader. I just couldn't do it. Then, I read ravidly for days on end. It was the strangest thing
Love to you and peace for your soul- xo Diana
Susan Shull says
Thank you, June! I receive that hug and send one right back to you. Who knows? Maybe one day we will meet in person here on earth, but if not here, in HEAVEN for sure!
Ceil says
Hi Susan! Is your story worth telling? YES. Especially the hard, fails, spills part. We can all relate to that, and you always come right back to love. Love of your family, friends, faith. Beautiful!
Please accept my prayers for you in this tough time. I often wonder why God wants us to love each other so extravagantly, only to see those we love die. I'll have to ask him about that when I see him. May God continue to heal you as you find your way through Anne, and the love of your husband.
Blessings,
Ceil
Mindy Whipple says
I have been thinking of you Susan and even stopped by a few days before you posted to check in on you. Prayers continue as you walk this road of grieving. We seem to have so much in common that I am delighted to find you are also an Anne (with an E) fan. I adore her! I have every book in the series and my daughter and I spent many hours watching the lovely series come to life on (then) VHS. Other than the Bible (of course) I find myself quoting Anne of Green Gables more than any other book. I do not, however,usually wear puffed sleeves and have never walked the ridge pole of a roof but I do find infinite beauty in God's creation and the descriptions of the Way of White Delight and more. I think God can definitely speak to our hearts through fiction which is often inspired by real life. I too would love a conversation with the author – or at least one with you to discuss her work : ) Sending a hug and prayers for continued healing of your heart…